Wisdom

Just mulling over some options for "keeping busy" next year. What with all the kids being in school and all. I am feeling kind of unsteady right now... Everyone is ready to get back to their routines and schedules and classes and friends, and I've been considering going back to school myself. Not really certain what I'll be working toward, but still, I'm looking at options.



Tonight I was shuffling through our filing cabinets to find my old BYU transcripts from undergrad days. (Had to check my GPA to see if I even qualified for entry to the Master's program I was looking into.)



I smiled, and felt a little tug at my heart, flipping past manila folders with titles such as:



Shot Records.



Swimming Class Report Cards.



Abby NICU Records.



Birthday Cake Ideas.



Letters from Family.



There, tucked far away in the back of the drawer, I found the thin file marked:



Laura - Transcript, Resume.



It contains only two pages, and has been sort of shoved aside, making room for the wonderful things that have filled my life these past 11 years since college graduation.



I know the other files are filled with meaningful and important things, memories that are sweet and treasured. Yet, it is reassuring to know that if I look far enough back there, I'll still find the little file that reminds me of me. The me who thinks in complete sentences, researches issues, presents papers, and soaks in new knowledge. I hope it doesn't sound too self-aware, but it is nice to know that that part of me still exists somewhere, waiting patiently to be called upon when the time is right.

(Also, just in case you were worried about it, my undergrad GPA was better than I remembered it being. So, that's good.)